It’s been a busy month of writing. I more or less managed to rewrite the first half of Accept Fire and Blood and revise the second half, all within the month of September. Add this to a long line of work and life related issues, and I think I will come out ahead for this month.
While I very much want to keep revising the book, I realize that it’s probably a bad idea. This is my thesis project for my MA at SHU and I submitted it to my two final readers via email yesterday. I think the first 12 chapters are solid, but I’m not sure how my “graders” will feel about my last 3 chapters. I really felt like I didn’t give those chapters the time and attention that the end of a book deserves. I have been known in the past to work on multiple versions of the same book in order to find the best way to tell the story. It’s more important to me that I share my story in the best possible way I can tell it, rather than just writing to write.
Even though I haven’t been getting much sleep due to the deadline and work issues, I’ve really enjoyed the revision process and finally making my story something that’s worth reading. I think while I wait for my final readers to get back to me on whether or not I’m going to graduate, I’ll start work on the next book in the series because I’ve enjoyed writing so much lately.
I think it’s weird that the more I write, the more I want to write. Sure, I’m getting frustrated that I don’t seem to have time in my life to do anything other than work and write and there are so many other things that I wish I could be getting done, but somewhere along the lines, I’d forgotten how much fun this could be.
Admittedly, there are a lot of days when I feel like an amateur hack writer who should just be content to have “a real job” for the rest of my life. Those are usually the days when I just can’t seem to get the story right or flowing and it’s frustrating. But I’ve learned that I just have to keep with it and push through. We all have self-doubts, but it’s what you accomplish when times are tough that show you what kind of person you really are.
My advise to all those like me? Just keep writing. Anything worth doing takes hard work and effort, but if you love it, the good days will outnumber the bad. It’s worth it because you have great stories worth sharing. The more you write, the better your writing will become.