ainokiseki:

A: My love…We live in a world that distrusts feelings. Over and over, we are reminded that feelings are not as important as reason. That feelings are childish, irresponsible, dangerous. We are taught to ignore them, control, or deny them. We barely understand what they are, where they come from, or how they seem to understand us better than we understand ourselves. But I know that feelings matter. Sometimes they’re little…like when I smell cinnamon toast and I miss my grandma. And sometimes, they are huge…like when I found out my girlfriend shares her thoughts with seven other people around the world.

N: Amanita…I wrote this thing like a hundred times and I tore them all up because I have to admit, I don’t like vows. I’m afraid of things pretending to be permanent because nothing is permanent. My life, especially these past two years, is a testament to the fact that things change, people change. But with you…that doesn’t scare me. It actually makes me happy. It makes me excited because I can think of no better life than watching Amanita Caplan change…watching her evolve and grow.